I have three children from my heterosexual marriage. I shall now pause to allow JD Vance to applaud my achievements, hand me additional ballots for my efforts, and offer me a teaching position.
One of my children is transgender. I shall now pause while JD Vance rips all of those things right back out of my hands and passes judgement on my parenting, my patriotism, and my child.
For those who have followed this blog and my sharing of my family's life for any period of time, you are aware that our youngest came out to me when he was 18. I have detailed much of our journey on the sister blog to DGMS, Transparent Trans Parent (link on left).
I shared his/our story with his full permission as we all hoped to bring the subject into better focus, put a much needed human angle on the word 'transgender', and to let other parents/children know they are not alone.
He is now 28 years old. So a decade since he found the courage to share his deepest truth with me, our family, and a year later, the world. In that time we have watched as more and more adults and children have come forward with their own truth to their parents, their friends, their coworkers. We have also watched as the GOP has waged a systematic attack on the transgender community, their access to medical care, their very right to exist.
State after state have seen bills cruelly written and signed into law that target, restrict, and demonize anyone who is transgender or who may be parenting someone who is. Bathroom bills prohibiting transgender people from using the bathroom of their gender. Sports related bills introduced to prohibit transgender kids from playing on teams of their gender. Access to care bills that force government into the most personal of parenting challenges and decision making.
That last one should not be a surprise, after all the GOP loves inserting themselves everywhere they should not be - bedrooms, contraception, abortion, marriage.
I currently live in Florida. Last year, a bill was advanced that would severely restrict the ability to receive gender affirming care in this state - for both minors and adults. Not surprisingly, America's most pathetic governor - Ron DeSantis - signed it into law. In June of 2023, U.S. District Judge Robert Hinkle blocked certain sections citing concerns over its constitutionality and potential discrimination.
Monday saw the U.S. Court of Appeals for the 11th Circuit lift those blocks. The results will be catastrophic.
That is not hyperbole. I'm the parent of a transgender human being. I know what I am talking about. While family and community support is so crucial to the well being of someone who steps into the light and fully claims their identity, access to care is just as paramount. This law (and so many like it across the country) jeopardizes the very lives of those in this state who are transgender.
In terms of minors, this law prohibits any form of gender affirming care, with only two exceptions:
~ Patients with a medically verifiable genetic disorder of sexual development.
~ Patients who were already receiving such treatment before May 17, 2023.
For the uneducated, puberty blockers provide a desperately needed stop gap for children who are transgender. Being able to suppress the hormones that will begin to make their body betray who they know themselves to be is huge in the care of their mental health. I say stop gap because, as opposed to the lies routinely told by the GOP, minors are not having body parts cut off or reconstructed. That assertion is just as egregious as their other favorite lie, that abortions are performed after birth.
We were lucky. Our son was an adult when he came out. Yet even with his age not being an issue, it was a full year of therapy before he was referred for HRT. Because the journey is not a capricious one. GOPers would have the public believe that parents just willy nilly walk their kid into CVS and buy some hormone treatments off the shelf and begin injecting. IT. DOES. NOT. WORK. THAT. WAY.
As a parent with a transgender child, the revelation, the search for care, the journey is deeply personal, deeply profound, deeply private. There is no place in this area of parenting for government to step in and deign to know the child better than the parent. I can tell you that when our son came out to me, in an instant everything crystallized. Every puzzle piece of my child slammed into place and it all made sense.
BECAUSE HE IS MY CHILD AND I KNOW HIM.
He is not a bill. He is not a law. He is not some scary talking point in what the GOP considers a juicy wedge issue in election years. He is a human being, and like every human being, he is complex, multifaceted, and knows who he is.
That last part is huge. Just as you wake up each day knowing who you are, so does he.
So, you are cis het. Sorry, big words - straight macho male - better? You wear jeans and boots and a flannel shirt and like looking at naked women. Fine. I'm just supposed to accept that? Based on what? Because you said so? No, sorry, Zeke. I think you are actually a woman. So excuse me while I chloroform your bigoted ass and while you are out have some implants shoved into your chest and your penis surgically turned inside out to form a vagina. Don't worry, we'll make sure you have a nice, flowy wig, and we'll get Bobbi Brown to personally do your make-up.
Hi Zelda! Nice to see you waking up. Don't panic, you look great. Here, let me help you over to the mirror. Oh, come on now, don't be like that. You look amazing. No, Zelda, I believe you are a woman and that is what matters here.
OK, fine - crass and hyperbolic to make a point (and the image is clearly AI - see manglewopped hand), but the point is valid. I don't get to tell you who you are. I don't know you. I don't know your history, your life, your struggles. I don't know your essential truth. Only you do. Which is my point to every politician - you don't know my son, not even remotely. But that has not stopped you from creating some scary, monstrous, perverted image of him for your constituents.
I have some questions. What I would ask the politicians and the people who have no real clue yet choose to believe the garbage:
~ How has your life been affected since my son came out to our family?
~ How has your life been changed since he began HRT?
~ How has your sleep been altered since he had top surgery?
~ How does his existence make your life a struggle from day to day?
The answers are simple. HIs existence, his journey, his life has had zero impact on yours. None. Zilch. Nada. But you? You have an impact on him every single fucking day.
In every bill you script that targets his ability to use a bathroom in a public space. In every glance you give him as he walks past while shopping. In every interaction he has with you as he simply tries to live his life from sun up to sundown without incident. I have said this for a decade now - he is not a danger to you, at all, not remotely. But YOU? You are a danger to him. Because society is fucked, and he has no idea who is an ally and who is an asshole.
You know that question from last month that made the rounds - Man or Bear? Who would a woman rather come upon in the woods? Poor insecure menfolk everywhere were outraged that the majority of women said bear. Well, using the same logic, who would I rather encounter in the bathroom? You - man or woman, no matter, or a transgender woman. I will take a transgender woman 8 days a week. Because they are in there under duress. I promise you they held off having to enter the bathroom as long as they could and all they want is to get in, use the toilet, wash their hands, and get out without danger.
Trans men and trans women are not lying in wait in the Target bathrooms to get you.
But back to the Florida law. The Trevor Project, a suicide prevention organization for LGBTQ+ youth, reports that 54% of transgender and nonbinary youth in Florida have seriously considered suicide in the past year. 54%. Let that sink in. If you are a parent - look at your child, and imagine that percentage touching your life. And here's the kicker: Kasey Suffredini, the organization’s vice president of advocacy, emphasized that although these young people do not have a predisposition to suicide risk, the stigma and mistreatment they experience in society are what drive them to such despair.
That is what keeps me up at night a decade into our journey with our son. He is great. He is forward facing. He has friends, family that loves him to the point of irritation (sorry, T), a job, talent, pets. But society is fucked to the point that all of that could be wiped away. And you do not have the right to endanger my child.
This Florida law extends to adults as well, inserting hurdles that make accessing care so much more difficult. From Transvitae:
The restrictions extend beyond minors to affect transgender adults as well. Under the new law, only licensed physicians are permitted to prescribe, administer, or perform gender-affirming care, effectively banning telehealth services and reducing the availability of care providers. Advanced practice registered nurses (APRNs) and other healthcare providers are no longer allowed to offer these services, leading to increased barriers to access and higher potential costs for patients.
The penalties for healthcare providers who violate this law are severe. Providing gender-affirming care to minors is now classified as a third-degree felony, while non-compliance with the new regulations for adult care is considered a first-degree misdemeanor. Furthermore, the law allows anyone who received gender-affirming care as a minor to sue their healthcare provider for up to 20 years after the treatment, with no limitations on punitive damages.
I miss my kids everyday, but I am so glad our son does not live in a backass state like this. As of July, half of the states in our country have enacted laws regarding care for trans youth and adults. Based on what, I ask you? Gender affirming care is backed by major organizations like the American Academy of Pediatrics and the World Health Organization. It is widely acknowledged that puberty blockers and hormone therapies are imperative treatments for easing the distress associated with gender dysphoria.
And again, IT DOES NOT AFFECT YOUR LIFE. My son receiving testosterone injections does not make your cornflakes taste different. Him having scars from top surgery does not impact your enjoyment of the big game. A parent being able to access puberty blockers for the child they know inside and out does not imperil your child's gender.
I am always stymied at the mental gymnastics done to justify what is acceptable medical practice and what violates some personal or religious strictures. I am long past pretending to tolerate the "God's will" bullshit so many hide behind. Where is God's will when your dick stops working and you beg a doctor for a prescription for Cialis? Where is God's will when you and your spouse cannot procreate yet run around God to beg a doctor to use IVF? Where is God's will when you are found to have breast cancer and you beat a path to the surgeon's door? Where is God's will when your child is diagnosed with a brain tumor yet you cannot get to specialist for removal fast enough? Hell, where is God's will when your hair begins to thin and you reach for Rogaine?
You have no problem usurping God's will when it serves your selfish purposes, when it gets you what you want, when you know better than your "god".
If there is a god - and let's be clear - there are currently over 6,000 of them out there floating around - if any of them have a problem with my parenting? I will take the afterlife bullet. Bring on the divine consequences. My job here on Earth, in this life, is to love and protect and care for my people to the very best of my ability. And that means knowing who they are, believing them when they talk to me, and helping them be the best, truest versions of themselves.
It also seems to be dealing with your bullshit all day, every day. I get it. Not every life will be touched by this particular place on the spectrum. But that does not mean you can't educate yourself and get a bigger, better understanding - including grasping that you do not have any right to hurt other people who just don't happen to be exactly like you.
These laws are abhorrent. And they are making their way up to the highest court - The U.S. Supreme Court has agreed to hear a challenge to a similar ban in Tennessee, which could have far-reaching implications for the legal status of gender-affirming care nationwide. The outcome of that case, expected to be argued in the upcoming term, will likely influence the future of transgender healthcare laws across the country.
If you are an ally, I beg that you help and make your voices heard. And if you are not? I ask that if you won't help, then don't go out of your way to hurt. From the deepest part of my heart, the heart that beats because my son's beats, I echo Tim Walz - Mind your own damn business.
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