This Time It's Personal

For 20 months now I have kept a running count of the COVID stats.  

For 20 months I have tried to inform, share the FACTS, dispel the BS.

For 20 months I have railed against the willful ignorance and blinding belligerence of the hoax-anti-vax-shove-horse-paste-and-light-up-their-asses crowd.

For 20 months I have watched my family from afar as they protect their health, reschedule their important plans, isolate, quarantine, and religiously mask themselves when out.

For 20 months I have begged, pleaded, cursed, and cajoled in an attempt to make the numbers REAL.

For 20 months my husband and I have been careful, masking, staying in, avoiding crowds, no concerts, no movies, double masking when travel has been necessary.

For 20 months I feel like I have been screaming into a void. 

But this time, as I sit at this keyboard?  This time it's personal.

My husband returned from Denver where he had gone to assist our son at a convention.  Fully vaccinated.  Booster scheduled.  Double masking.  Hand washing.  All the precautions.   

He came home with COVID.

Because of the still high, sickeningly selfish percentage of people in this country who refuse to hold up their end of the social contract and get their asses vaccinated.  

For over a week now he has lived behind our bedroom door.  Him isolated from me.  Me isolated from him.  And when that door opens for brief seconds so he may get food from the table outside it?  Double masks at all times.  Our daughter's wedding is FINALLY this coming weekend - we have lost count of the number of times it has been rescheduled, reworked, downsized.  And while he will be past the CDC ten day guidance come Thursday, should I get a breakthrough case from him, I cannot, will not travel and endanger anyone else.  That's right.  I would miss my daughter's wedding - at which I am to officiate - because I will not risk someone else's life.

Here is what I can tell you from this past 8 days.

My heart has been caught in a vice every time I hear even the slightest cough from behind that door.  

Yes, he is fully vaxxed, but he is also 63 years old.  I worry. A lot.

Each day as I write down the new COVID stats, I am enraged as I know he is now counted within the numbers of cases, and we both are in the numbers of tests.

There is a reason it is spelled cOUCH.

The ten minute wait for an At Home COVID test to process feels like YEARS.  I test myself every other day.

I despise every person who gets their COVID information from Facebook, Youtube, some halfassed Qaren in the PTA, football quarterbacks, and jackholes like Joe Rogan.  You are idiots.  And should you contract COVID, the hospital should turn your asses away and save their efforts, their ventilators, their SCIENCE for people who actually tried to stay well.

During this isolation period, the vaccine has been approved for children 5-11.  And newsfeeds are filled with these children bravely rolling their sleeves up.  They are smarter than YOU.  Because while no one likes a needle in their skin, even a child can understand the simple concept of protecting other people.  

Because that is what a vaccine is about, you wetbrained, pants shitting, twat waffles.  As human beings, we are nothing but a bunch of leaky, aerosol emitting, virus transmitting holes.  And one cough, one sneeze, one hand on a doorknob that is then wiped across a nose - that is all it takes to give what you carry to someone else.  We vaccinate to protect ourselves, and to protect those around us.  It's that simple.

And these COVID vaccines are not going to make your keys stick to your arms, or sneak a tracking chip under your skin, or make you die in five years, you easily led cowards.  Bill Gates doesn't care fuck-all about when you go to Costco - that would be Mark Zuckerburg - pay attention.  You self important shitheels really think that the government needs to slip a nanochip under your skin to track you?  YOU CARRY A CELL PHONE EVERYDAY.

And all these talking heads that keep you angry, scared, and ready to lash out?  You know, the Tucker Carlsons, Judge Jug-O-Wine Pirro, the Trump clan, any GOPer inciting you to threaten violence at school board meetings?  THEY'RE VACCINATED.

And you're a rube. 

COVID is not going away because you won't let it.  Since yesterday morning, just shy of another 100,000 have tested positive.  Another 804 will never carve another turkey at Thanksgiving.  And now?  We have lost 1 out of every 425 people in this country to a virus for which we HAVE VACCINES.

How many of you won't make it to Thanksgiving?  How many more children will be orphaned by you come Christmas?  At this rate, conservatively, 45,000 more people will not ring in the New Year.

And you know what?  If you are still sitting around squealing bullshit about the vaccines, throwing tantrums about being asked to mask, and then begging for the shot when you are in the ICU?  I do not care if you are among the 45,000.  You cannot save someone who just doesn't give a shit to begin with.  And you, dear ratfucks, don't give a shit.  Not about yourself, not about your kids, certainly not about society.

So lick all the doorknobs you want.  Cough in each other's mouths.  And die owning the libs or whatever horseshit you think you are doing to us.  (Hint - we are laughing at you.)  

I'll sit over here, booster shot coursing through me, and watch.   Because you endangered my husband, the love of my life, and every day when I write down the new stats, I will never forgive you.

Make no mistake, I have cared about these faceless numbers for 20 months, but this time?  This time it's personal.  

Comments

[Keith Bryan Wilson]

I am vaccinated and have not contracted COVID. My daughter (a nurse) and son are vaccinated and are okay. Last month I was scheduled to have spinal fusion with disc replacements, L2-S1. The hospital here in MN canceled my appointment because their ICU was filled with COVID cases. Meanwhile, my symptoms are worsening. But the surgery is scheduled again for Friday, so we will see what happens. COVIDs impact on me is so much less than on others, but yeah, it's personal.

[Jimmy]

Get well soon, Rudy!

[Jane George]

I am so sorry to hear about your husband, my 51 year old son, fully vaccinated,mask wearing, healthy and active. Came down with Covid in August of this year, he has to travel for work and it finally caught him. He spent his 10 days in a motel so as to keep his family and me safe. He has been left with lingering problems, he is now on high blood pressure meds, previously he had no BP issues. His sense of smell has not returned and he is also experiencing some intermittent brain fog. Please be vigilant with your husbands' well being, this Covid shit is really horrible. Prayers coming your way that you get to enjoy your daughters wedding.