Dying To Be Loved

Today I spent ten hours in my minivan.  The day involved driving up to Denton (past Dallas) to pick up Kendall and Lauren from orientation at UNT.

My ass is numb, my legs sore, but that's ok.  It was for my child, a child I have loved since I knew she was growing inside me.  A child I have loved beyond reason every single day of her life.  A child whose hug I would walk through Hell just to feel, her laugh just to hear.

There is nothing I would not do to protect her.  My love is all consuming, without condition, without hesitation, never ending.

That is what EVERY CHILD DESERVES.

Yet so many children come into this world as a result of unprotected sex, not desire to pour every fiber of one's being into parenting and protecting.

There are untold numbers of children in this world living in anguish, marginalized, ignored, abused, hungry - not just for nourishment, but for nurturing.  A hug to so many children would be as welcome as a Happy Meal.

Which brings me to a precious 3 year old who is hospitalized in Oklahoma with injuries so horrific, memories inflicted upon him so heinous, I honestly find myself wishing the angels would come take him away, release him from the unbearable suffering, unimaginable abuse he has endured at the hands of those he should have been able to trust most in this world.

First meet Jennifer Chapman, his "babysitter."  I couch that in quotation marks because the last thing she did was look out for his well being.

This monstrous piece of shit SOLD HIM to two men so they could have sex with him, in exchange for giving her all she really cares about:  METH.

At their hands he was raped repeatedly for hours.  He was forced to drink bleach (his face is covered with chemical burns.  A portion of his scalp/skull was ripped off.  And he had been hung by a dog collar for hours.

Wrap your mind around that.  I can't.  I cannot conceive of hurting any child, let alone a 3 year old little boy.  And it is beyond my mind's ability to grasp how anyone could be so insanely, monstrously cruel.

My heart wants to reach through this story and rescue him.  Hold him.  Tell him he is safe.  That no one will ever hurt him again.

When these masses of sewage were finished torturing him, they returned him to his babysitter, who was staying in a motel with his mother.

Ah, yes - his mother.  Another gem in the humanity crown.  Meet Leana Lauck - another methhead.

Leana told police she knew he was injured but waited to do anything about it - FOR HOURS - EIGHTEEN HOURS.

She was more concerned with what would happen to her if she took him to the hospital.

So she indulged in some more meth with her friend while he lay there suffering, a portion of his head missing.

Again, I find myself very conflicted.  Would death be a sweet release for this tormented child who has endured pure evil?  His body ripped apart, his psyche torn even more.  

As for his mother, babysitter, and the two wastes of oxygen who are still on the loose?  Death is far too easy for them.  They need abused.  They need to feel every ounce of agony, every river of pain that coursed through him, every horrific second of consciousness in which he could not understand what was happening to him or why, only that it was, and it was excruciating.

They need tortured, for TWENTY FOUR HOURS, until they beg for death.  And even then, their wish would not be granted.  They would be dunked in bleach - every open wound a fiery cauldron of fresh pain as the chemicals burn into their flesh.

Then, dump them in a pit and let what life is left slowly eek out of them into the dirt.

I do not want to hear them hide behind meth as their excuse.  I don't want to hear an insanity defense.  I. DON'T. CARE.

They took the most precious thing in this world - a child - and put him through hell for their selfish enjoyment.

This child only deserves Heaven.  LOVE, whether here or in whatever lies beyond our last breath.

These sacks of flesh?  Well, I don't know if Satan could even stomach their presence in Hell.  I imagine even he has standards.

Comments

[Tiffany]

This literally made me sick to my stomach and tears roll down my face. So horrific, I cannot even imagine. I hope they all suffer.

[Nikki]

Sigh. Poor little boy. I can't decide what would be best for him, either. I hope they round up those pieces of s**t, besides his mother and babysitter, and that they all suffer badly for what they did. This is evil at its purest form.

[Virginia]

I read stories like this, and I look at my 3 yr old son, and I want to cry. I just can't imagine the pain that little boy is going thru. It makes me sick to my stomach that anyone could hurt him like that. Let alone his own mother letting his suffer thru it. I hope those assholes get arrested and thrown in jail for a LONG time with their story being told to EVERY sexually deprived inmate there. Let them live thru what they did to that little boy. For 15 years to life.

[Bobbsey]

Cannot comprehend this level of evil and quite, frankly , I don't wish to - I only know that it exists.

[PennyB]

Hell is too good for the four people involved in this horrific story. May God NOT have mercy on their souls for they deserve no mercy.

I hope that this poor child's future is filled with nothing but love and understanding and that his memories are erased. I cannot imagine him having a life of remembering what his mother allowed to happen to him - I know that I worded it badly but am too rattled to do it any justice.

[Katy]

Callen: I couldn't get this story out of my head either. I sat at my desk yesterday, staring at a picture of my son I have from when he was about that age. He had just woke up from one of his naps, and he's standing in his crib, his little face is staring back at me with the cutest little half-smile. I would always just scoop him out of his crib and kiss him all over his face and hug him and smell him (well, hopefully no dirty diaper!), but I cannot comprehend anyone hurting him at that age (or any age really), or a mother that wouldn't fight like a rabid dog to protect him.

Anyway, if anyone hears updates on the two "men" (POS animals) that did this to this poor child, keep us posted. I hope they all rot in hell.

[Callen]

I couldn't get this story out of my head so I googled for more info. According to a family member (Stacey) the family had tried for years to get the child away from his mother, but she did "just enough" to satisfy CPS and she managed to hold onto her son. The family member added that the child is doing remarkably well and they hope he will be released in the next couple days.

[RBlues]

God bless this baby boy! I agree with waht everyone above has said--an eye for an eye!

[Another Lori in TX]

We were in Tulsa, OK this past weekend when the story broke about this poor child. I had to send my 12 year old daughter out of the room while we were watching the news because I didn't want her to see the horror of the story.

I have no words for how sad I am for this little boy, and how shocked and astonished I am that ANY human could put a child through this anguish.

[Jamie in WI]

I too just want to hold that little boy close - and tell him everything will be alright.

As for those wastes of flesh - this is WHY we need the death penalty - IN EVERY G*DDAMN state! And when the death penalty is served - it should then be carried out IMMEDIATELY! No appeals, no years on death row sucking our tax dollars away! And no "Humane" lethal injection bullshit! Fry 'em, hang 'em, firing squad! Hell bring back the guilloteen (sp?) and chop their heads off!

I pray that the Dr's can help this child recover physically from his wounds and scars - I hope time will erase the emotional ones - and that a lovong family will provide that child the love and comfort he so rightly deserves!

[Callen]

Oh my God. I feel sick.

[Chicky (Kathy)]

I read this about an hour ago - I had no words, just tears and intense anger - so much so that I had to leave for awhile and not think about it. Even now, I am struggling to find the words. So I won't say anything except I agree with what you, Jennifer and Katy said.

[Katy]

God D*mn, Linda, where do you find these stories? This made me sick to my stomach, so much that I had to go to another site immediately and do the "la, la, la, la, I didn't just read this horrific story, la, la, la." I hope that all parties involved are brought to justice, but I would rather see that all had a cattle prod shoved up their ass for life.

And i agree with you, if this child is suffering as we speak, I PRAY God takes back this angel and delivers him to someone who can love and nurture him his whole life.

[Jennifer]

AMEN!!!!! I am so tired of hearing about how it wasn't their fault, the drugs/alcohol made them do it. Bull and shit! They need to be held accountable for their actions (and inactions.)