I am tired. Not simply because I stayed awake into the small hours watching, waiting, refreshing my feeds as the Senate tried yet again to push through a healthcare bill that would only serve to make people sicker. A bill that would provide wealthcare to the rich via tax breaks, and financial devastation, illness, and death to we peasants.
Even when the vote finally took place and three GOP senators voiced their No's, thus killing the "skinny repeal," sleep still did not come easy. It is hard to drift off when fear adrenaline has been coursing through your veins for hours.
So yes, I am physically tired this morning.
I am also emotionally wrung out. Resisting is as much psychological as it is physical. Resisting for people who don't know they should also be resisting only serves to make the act that much more draining.
This morning I am weary. I am pensive. Several months ago I sat here and typed the title What Will It Take? That piece, addressed to Trump supporters, has been read by just under 1 million people so far, with more finding it, sharing it each day. What Will It Take was spurred by the egregious behavior and acts demonstrated by the sitting POTUS at that point. I asked because it is stymying how any decent person can watch the wholesale dismantling of all that makes this country worth defending, yet still defend the person doing the damage.
This morning, in the light of another day that dawned with so many people's lives literally having hung in the balance in the middle of the night, I ask the question to his supporters: Do You Still Not Get It?
Trump has no plans. Just as he had no plans during the campaign cycle. He had personality. He had hubris. He had that "Fuck 'em" bravado that seems to draw the easily led into line. Think back to the bully on your playground. Think about how so many tried to curry favor for fear of being his target. That's you.
I can understand your frustrations that led you to his side. Feeling powerless, small, voiceless. Suddenly this big brute of a man comes along promising you the world - his version of it anyway - playing to your fears, promising you he will make it all better. I get it. When you don't truly understand how anything works - and governance is a big one - it is easy to be swept up in someone telling you they will take care of everything.
But what you did not get then is that your thirst to stick it to the libtards, or to the the first half black man who dared to be POTUS, or to everything you purport to hate but do not understand blinded you to the fact that Trump never said ANYTHING.
Nothing substantive. Nothing that could be backed up with data, carefully thought out plans, workable approaches to problems. All he offered you was bombast and word salads even more lacking in intellectual croutons than anything Sarah Palin ever served up.
He promised you the world, and you bought it. You did not ask questions. You did not care that he displayed a complete lack of understanding of the position to which he was applying. You looked right past his targeting of entire groups of human beings because he was not targeting you.
Last night you were targeted. While you slept, you, your parents, your friends, your children all had targets on your heads. Last night millions were in the gun sights of a chamber full of snipers eager to take the kill shots that would make Trump love them. YOU DID NOT MATTER.
Do you still not get it?
If you drifted off secure in thinking that your insurance is through your job so this is of no consequence to YOU, let me enlighten you on that score. The CBO clearly stated that the "skinny repeal" would not only terrorize tens of millions by throwing them off their healthcare insurance obtained through the ACA, but would affect at least 6 million people who are insured through work. Tell me, how can you pour your kid's cornflakes this morning and not care about that? You demonstrated how capricious and don't-give-a--shit you are about other people with your vote. Are you truly that tied to Trump tribalism that you will play Russian roulette with your child's life?
Pre-existing conditions are not the sole domain of Democrats, yet you act like you cannot be touched. That is as laughable as behaving like liberals are the only ones who get abortions. Sorry, but your conservative church pews are full of what you like to call "baby killers."
The GOP efforts towards this action had a 17% approval rating. 17%. Yet they moved forward behind closed doors, in darkness, and without a care because they do not care. Not about me. Not about you. You, my dear Trump voter, were simply a means to an end. A way into power.
How do you still not get that your party finds your fears, creates a target for them, and then plays on those fears to get your votes, promising you that only THEY can protect you from the boogey men in the night?
THEY ARE THE BOOGEY MEN IN THE NIGHT.
So many of you have protested loudly that you are not racist, not bigots, phobes of all ilk, that your vote for Trump had nothing to do with those things. Fine, you want me to cut you some slack here? At the very least, you are guilty by association. You heard it all, you saw it all, yet you proudly donned a MAGA hat or Fuck Your Feelings t-shirt and went along with it. You drove the getaway car in this theft.
And you have left a nation reeling.
This past week alone, your efforts have endangered tens of millions of fellow Americans. Not just the LGBTQIA community which has been assaulted yet again by Sessions who sees no need for protections in the workplace; not just because my transgender son woke up two days ago having been targeted as unfit and a disruption by his nation's POTUS. No, not just that community. Your efforts endangered the entire American community.
And that includes you.
Do you still not get that you are being targeted? I don't care how bootstrappy you may like to think yourself, most of us are one healthcare crisis away from ruin. And when that happens, Trump is not going to give a shit. Hell, he does not give a shit about you today any more than he did a year ago. He is what he has always been - a slick, smarmy conman with criminal connections, who cares only about two things: Himself & Money. That's it, that's all. Anyone my age or older has been aware of his existence since the 80s. His track record for malfeasance, cheating, scheming, illicit behavior is public knowledge.
It is mindboggling to me the mental origami his base is performing to still defend him. There is no there to defend. The investigations into, and connections he has to Russia are real, no matter how badly you want to believe otherwise. Read his recent interview with the NYT and defend any portion of it as making any sense. You can't. It is a disjointed collection of half thoughts, red meat catchphrases, and creations of his own mind.
He is not the mental giant you want him to be. He doesn't know more than the generals. He does not have some secret plan to defeat ISIS in 30 days. He is golfing weekly at your expense. He does not understand how a bill becomes a law. He Tweets continuously and embarrassingly into the night.
Exactly what are you defending?
I suspect for many of you - you are defending yourselves from having to admit you were hoodwinked. I get that, too. No one likes to admit they were wrong, especially about something so big. But you were.
Finally, ask yourselves this. Why were you, and are you, still so quick to believe, wholesale, every heinous thing ever bandied about Hillary Clinton (see child sex ring in the basement of a pizza parlor THAT DOES NOT HAVE A BASEMENT), yet refuse to even pay attention to the egregious actions and behaviors - all provable - of Trump? Seriously, reverse any ONE thing he has done or is being investigated for, replace the word Hillary for Trump, and ask yourselves how you would be reacting.
We already know. Benghazi ring a bell?
You would be calling for her head in a KFC bucket.
Just because you do not like a piece of information does not make it "FAKE NEWS!" What it does is make you look like the imbecile you are still supporting.
And he simply does not deserve your support, your loyalty, your life. Oh, he'll take it all right. But he will not give any back. Take a good hard look at this picture. This is a man who has never been one of you, understands one of you, cares about one of you, even wants to be touched by one of you. Trump believes that the winner is the one who dies with the most stuff. And if you die while he takes yours, that's fine with him.
Do you still not get it?